Sometimes you meet someone and even though you never liked hazel eyes before, their eyes are your favourite colour now and sometimes you meet someone who can make the sickest addictions seem beautiful and sometimes there’s some people you’d rather sit on a couch with and drink some gas station coffee and read your favourite books over and over while you forget that dinners on the stove so it gets burned but you still think it’s delicious anyway.
I just…I don’t even, ya know? Just fuck it all, don’t even know right now, I don’t know what to do with my life right now, how the hell? I usually have all the answers I need, but now…fuck no, not when its my life, my problems, my anything, can’t figure shit out, don’t know what to say, what to do, I just don’t know anymore, I don’t even fucking know…what should I do? I piss everyone around me off, but they stay, I don’t know why, I’m just a waste of fucking everything, I can’t do a damn thing right to save my life, I can’t even keep my girlfriend happy anymore, what am I supposed to do anymore? I finally get a job and my life gets worse, nothing ever goes my way, ever…I’m so done with this, but I don’t know what to do to change or fix or make anything better, fuck!